Was I Really Ready?

Here I was about 36 weeks along with the pregnancy just dying to not be pregnant anymore. Everyday i would wake up hoping that day would be the day Jaxon would come. Well about 4:30 in the morning on May 15th, 2009 I had been woken up by horrific pains. These contractions were nothing i have ever experience before during the pregnancy, they were more painful than i could even begin to explain. I knew it was time. I told Jared it was time to go only to here the response of, "Really, but I am sleepy". Not exactly what I was wanting to here at that moment. Realizing how not very happy I was, Jared was out of that bed in a flash. Weeks ago this was what I was looking forward to, but at that time the thoughts that were going through my head were different. On the way to the hospital all I could think about was how much pain I was in, was I really ready for this, how can I be a mom, I wasn't meant for this. By the time we got to the hospital I was already dilated to a 7. Within an hour and a half of being at the hospital my water broke, everything went pretty quick from there. Then, 8:26 a.m. rolls around and there he was! The most precious thing in the world was handed to me and placed on my stomach. At that moment all those negative thoughts were gone. Everything that I thought was so horrible the past 9 months, the tiredness, the feeling sick to my stomach, the weird cravings, looking in the mirror feeling like an oversize elephant, the pain, everything was all gone. That baby was a miracle to me and that is when I knew I was, really ready.